The thing with locker room sex is that it's double-edged with fear and thrill, both of which make the sexual transaction excitingly pleasurable. What then happens when someone walks in on us? We hit the brakes. We play it safe. We check if the newcomer is game. Then we proceed. What about on the more metaphorical level? What happens if someone walks in on your life while you're caught up having fun in this playground?
When I started this blog, I didn't worry about running out of content. As arrogant as it may sound, I knew there was always gonna be someone, sometwo or somefive whom I will sleep sleep with. What I was more worried about was what will happen to this blog the moment some great guy walks into my life and starts a fairytale with me. I didn't want to dwell on it, so I parked it on the side. But the thought is still there.
No. There is no fairytale yet. But there is this guy. And I am not gonna tell you about it. Fat chance. This one's for private consumption. Going back, give me this post to ponder on the subject please. Thank you.
Should I even tell great guy about this blog's existence? Should I let him in on the premise that I sleep around a lot? Personally, I believe that there is and should always have a cap and ceiling when it comes to honesty. Too little breeds contempt. Too much of something, as the Spice Girls put it, is bad enough. Right now, I am leaning on keeping this bit of my life to myself. If anything, it's my sex that should do the talking.
Does this mean that I will go on sleeping with other guys? Too early to say. But to your surprise (trust me) I am a very monogamous bitch. I may not be a penchant for relationships, but when I am in one, there is no other guy I'd be sleeping with. Unless he's Shinji Ono. Or Steve Carrell. Or Axel Brooks. Or Marco Blaze... That bit of sleeping around has to be discussed. But would I want great guy sleeping with anyone else? Not really. I also happen to be a very (yes) jealousy-prone bloke. But hey, I think the trick here is just give and take, understanding, and a sense of being openminded. At the onset of whatever is gonna happen, the foundations have to be laid out and the details have to be clear.
But I am getting way ahead of myself.
Right now, lemme just say that I am still in my playground and there's this great guy who had just walked in on me.
